To Do list:Schoolwork:
Compile a list of research ideas for:
- PSY290 Final Paper
- PSY290 Literature Reviews [ ][ ]
- PSY 290
- The simulation class next semester.
- Graduate school.
Make to buy list for next large FINAID disbursement.
- Join Psychology Club
- Print out, fill out, and submit petition from New College.
- Find out if CLEP reimbursement for veterans works for me. If so, consider taking a few.
- American Government
- History of the United States II: 1865 to the Present
- Human Growth and Development
- Social Sciences and History
- Find out if GRE reimbursement for veterans works for me. If so, consider take the basic, Biology and Psychology subject matter tests..
Contemplate getting a storage unit close to campus and get stuff out of mom's house.Writing:
- interview type clothes
- work-out type clothes
- a swimsuit
- new monitor
- new phone--camera?
- Frameless military-grade pack.
- Sleeping bag.
- Toiletry kit
- New compass
- Spare LED SureFire
- Mosquito net
- 550 cord
- New t-shirts
- New boots
- Wool socks
- New boxers
- High-top Sneakers... Converse?
- Proper first aid kit.
- Pocket survival kit.
- Water bottle
- Business Cards
- Start writing out ideas and logic behind the "grand diagram" I posted a while back.
- Actually write fiction.
- Finish fanfics
- Write something based on dreams I've had.
- Transcribe what I want to do with my life.
- Finish Letter if I don't Wake up Tomorrrow.
Paper on Origin Beliefs Take home exam for ASM 301 Write reaction paper for PSY 369 Write 2   Papers for Social Psychology. E-mail link to Ben. Cash small check for shoes. Look up answers to Primatology Exam. Write abstract for Sociobiology. When I find yourself bored and wandering through the hair supplies section of a Wal-mart or something... Find headbands like these: http://noxtigress.deviantart.com/art/Black-Tufted-Ears-80160893 Just plain basic plastic cheapies in black or dark brown (preferably) or white.
If you could travel back in time, what would you tell your 10-year-old self?
Exactly what I told my 15-year-old son the other day:
All women are crazy. What you have to do is find one whose crazy you can live with and work on it until it doesn't work anymore. Then, move on...
Note: In the actual conversation with my son, after pointing this out, my son asked "Even mom?" and I replied "Especially your mom."
The BBC believes most people will have read only 6 of the 100 books here. How do your reading habits stack up? Bold the ones you've read! Italicize the ones you've partially read!
01 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen02 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
03 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
04 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling (Watched all the movies so far... but that doesn't count.)
05 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee (High School...)
06 The Bible (There be some freaky stuff in there!)
07 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
08 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell (Just didn't get into it... )
09 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller (I... er... watched the movie.)14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier 16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy (Read the first page or two and went... "No.")25 The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck 29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens 33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
(Yes, I read them all. I liked the twists in Magician's Nephew and the Last Battle.)
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen 36 The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden 40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell 42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
(Yes, I read it after I watched the movie. I don't know why the book wasn't the same size as other paperbacks either.)
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood (It's on my shelf, right over there --->)49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel 52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez 61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
(High School...)62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
(I actually read this in high school. Checked it out from the library after listening to The Police sing about "that famous book by Nabokov" in "Don't Stand So Close to Me".)
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie 70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker 73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
(My room at my dad's was the one with my stepmom's books on the shelves. It was interesting. Then I found the sex scenes in "Clan of the Cave Bear"...)
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Inferno – Dante
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt 81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry 87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom 89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
(Loved these and Encyclopedia Brown books in elementary school...)
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad (This too is on my bookshelf, right over there --->)
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks 94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute 97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl 100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
Okay... that's 19 for me.
Based on the books on your bookshelf, what conclusions would people draw about you?
I'm a biological and psychological science nerd with military and writing leanings...
I was the son of some eccentric movie producer from a sci-fi series not to be named. Said producer was dying and left me his mansion. By mansion, I should say "semi-industrial complex and living quarters on a distant mountaintop" with a complete almost closed system nuclear/disaster shelter underneath it.
Oh, and the fact that--since the mid '70's, there have been people living in said shelter who think of him as a god. He was dying and it was mine.
Yeah, so part of it was being the first person in about 10 years to go down there. Essentially, it was like a very high tech, small town with a lot of red-heads and a few albinos. They were happy down there.
Smart, well-educated, not wanting to leave, and many of them younger and born there. The movie producer hadn't even entered since the complex was finished. I think he had a penchant for someone down there that he couldn't--in good concience--be with. They were total isolates. So, I decide to get to know them and then to bring them access to outside information.
Like many of my dreams, this one sorts of flashes forward a few years.
I put the people in the complex to work. The "mansion" now included a factory under one part of the house and extending out. There were regular workers from outside and they (nor anyone else) knew about the people underground. Some would work in the house with me, but most ran things behind the scenes and designed prototype ideas for me.
The money both paid for the factory and the expansion of the original complex.
Now for the weirdest part of the dream. It was like some family get together of mine and everyone I've ever considered family or related was coming there (I guess money does that). The ages--even between siblings--were wrong though. Some were still young as now, others were older, and it was a little confusing.
At the same time, on the road in, someone was shot. A government inspector of the factory. Only, it wasn't with a gun, it was a golf-ball thrower. (Why you would want to chuck golf balls at that high of velocity, I don't know.)
I went to locate it and it was one of the prototype products made there and it was set up in a location that shouldn't have cameras pointed at it but had a lot of traffic. Another government rep suggested it would seriously cost me when investigated.
I played along, but wheeled the device to where I could store it and have it looked at. (Essentially by the town under the house). After I stashed it in a storage room accessible by them... Which was really cool to get to because most of the whole place was secret doors and secret access walls and... yeah. After I stored it, I knew the people under in the complex actually had the sensors to tell me who did it.
Anyway, I woke up then, but it was a really cool idea. Too long for FaceBook. *grin*
It's now something like 15 years later.
...you might know what I've been doing a little of lately.
And, yes, it's an agility-heavy mech.
What's your dream job? Are you qualified for it? If not, would that stop you from taking it if it were offered to you?
I would like to be a behavioral and/or biological researcher. I figure teaching will be part of it as well as writing.
I'm not yet qualified for it, although I'm in the process of getting that way. I'm done with an appropriate undergraduate degree in all but administrative ways, I did well on a practice GRE, and I'm working on finding a lab to work in. In the meantime, I'm developing a research idea on my own, doing the literature review, developing a research instrument, and researching what I will need to effectively analyze it.
If I was offered such a job--as long as I had the opportunity to learn as I went--perhaps in a collaborative manner--I would definitely take it.
Just answer each question on a comment, then post the same questions in your journal if you wish.
● I died:
● I kissed you:
● I fell:
● I lived next door to you:
● I showed up at your house unexpectedly:
● I stole something:
● I was murdered:
● I cried:
● I asked you to marry me:
● I was hospitalized:
● Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?:
● Keep a secret if i told you one?:
● Hold my hand?:
● Study with me?:
● Cook for me?:
● Love me?:
● Date me?:
● Have sex with me?:
● When and how did we meet?:
● Describe me in three words:
● What was your first impression of me?:
● What do you think of me now?:
● What reminds you of me?:
● Could you see us together forever?:
● Whens the last time you saw me?:
● Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?:
One thing I do reply to--often--are posts in usergroups. One group is sextips and one post was about a person who only has sexual desire until they have sex.
For some reason, my brain connected that to Julie, although she didn't stop after sex.
So, what I was thinking is something that would explain her serial cheating with Ron and why she hit on--oh--about every male half of a male-female pair we knew.
So, the idea is this: As a victim of childhood sexual abuse, the victim learns that 1) they can't say "no" without consequences and 2) outside of sex, the rest of their well being depends on making the abuser happy or at least not mad. This means--as a child/teen/partner not in control--this person depends on reading the anger of the abuser/partner and putting up with their sexual needs--whether the victim wants to or not.
If the victim wants sex and sex on their terms, they have to either read the abuser/partner perfectly and WANT what that person does or
they have to go elsewhere for it. The nice thing about going elsewhere is--as long as they are not in a relationship--the victim gets to say "no". If the abuser/partner is dangerous or can be made so, the victim has a means of insurance against the cheating-partner getting out of hand.
This is the dynamic in an abusive relationship.
I protect my sexual wants by keeping sex outside my relationship: "If I want sex, I go get it from someone I can influence/control."
I protect my ability to live by keeping my partner happy: "If I want a relationship, I put up with whatever my partner wants and try not to let them get angry."
So... what happened with Julie/Carl?
There's another dynamic. In both of the situations above, the victim is protecting themselves. This depends--in an abusive relationship--of reading the partner's anger as feedback. Sort of warning signs of what not
to do. Me? I didn't get angry and what I tried to do was make things better for her.
Which totally stripped away feedback from her decision loop. Sometimes, she pushed trying to get an anger response--it's important to her protection--and other times she interpreted it as me not loving her. Eventually, I think she picked up another factor: "If I want to protect myself in a relationship without a threat to me, I must take control. If I take control, I must control myself and
So, what do you call controlling your intimate partner?
Abuse, of course. You call it abuse.
And that is how I think "the cycle of abuse" runs generation to generation.
Hope whoever she's banging now gets angry enough to keep her in check or that she's learned something along the way.
Research Idea: Military Experience and Homelessness.
Rationale: Military anti-recruitment and other groups cite a higher proportion of military veterans in the homeless population. Their take is the military produces "damaged goods" unable to adapt to civilian life after the military. I propose—if a difference in proportion exists—such a difference may be based on differences in perception regarding adverse living conditions by veterans compared to non-veterans. Additionally, I predict homeless veterans will report—on average—a greater degree living options available to them implying a greater degree of choice in being homeless than non-veterans.
Essentially, I propose—if there are differences in homeless populations—it is a cultural/cognitive difference rather than a pathological one including the effects of social disconnection between some veterans and the population at large.
Hypothesis 1: The number of military veterans is not different than homeless people with no history of military service.
Hypothesis 2: Any difference from the expected proportions due to military service are correlated with a difference in viewing adverse living conditions between veterans and non-veterans.
Hypothesis 3: Veterans will report more options available as an alternative to homelessness than non-veterans.
Independent Variable 1 (IV1): Military Service
Levels (primary): Yes/No
Levels (secondary): No/Combat (combatant or support)/Non-combat (combatant or support)
Operational Definition (primary): Legally defined veteran status.
Operational Definition (secondary): Combat: Earned decoration or badges for combat action. Non-combat: all others. Combatant: Primary military occupation directly involved with engaging enemy personnel. Support: all others.
Independent Variable 2 (IV2): View on adverse living conditions.
Levels: (To be determined)
Operational Definition: (To be determined)
Dependent Variable 1 (DV1): Homelessness (current)
Operational Definition: Yes or no: Individual meets X of the following criteria:
· No permanent address.
· Structure—if any—lived in is unheated and uncooled.
Dependent Variable 2 (DV2): Months out of the last ten years homeless.
Operational Definition: Count of month's meeting criteria above.
Dependent Variable 3 (DV3): Alternatives available.
Operational Definition: Response to question: "If you decided to do so today, how many places or people could you turn to get off the street?"
Hypothesis 1: Veterans will be the same proportion of the homeless population as they are of the non-homeless population for a given area.
Hypothesis 2: Veterans will define adverse conditions differently than non-veterans in both the homeless and non-homeless populations. This will correlated in a higher veteran homeless rate.
Hypothesis 3: Because of hypothesis 2, homeless veterans will report more alternatives to homelessness available than non-veterans, indicating a greater degree of choice.
· Mental illness diagnosis—including type
· Drug habits
· Criminal involvement
· Participation bias
· Self-report of veteran status.
Participants will be a mixed sample—homeless and not—recruited from urban or rural areas. Ideally, the sample will consist of both the non-homeless and homeless people from a specific geographical area to allow for matching for regional differences.
Acknowledgments: Members of the usmilitary community on livejournal.
Research Idea: Intrinsic value and social loafing.
Rationale: The literature and simulations with game theory are replete with the application of costly punishment on cheaters and norm violators on economic decisions. The primary assumption is that all members of such groups are created equal. Looking at the phenomenon of highly paid CEO's and athletes as well as gender differences in relationships, I contend there may be a competing process at work, one of intrinsic value based on non-economic contribution.
I propose that people may consider norm violations that result in increased group success differently concerning punishment. In this case, people who normally would attempt to promote social compliance will not do so based on group advantages.
A contending model--the selfish model--would ignore social norms completely and base punishment only on the observer's benefit. The null model would be one--as in the literature--that punishment increases only in response to norm violations regardless of overall benefit.
Hypothesis: Members of a social group will tolerate violations of social norms for those who are of greater intrinsic value.
Independent Variable 1 (IV1): Loafer's compliance with social norms.
Operational Definition: Initial investment into a round of a common goods game.
Independent Variable 2 (IV2): Intrinsic Value of loafer.
Operational Definition: Increased return based on the presence or skill of the loafer. An average value is essentially the same value as any other player.
Independent Variable 3 (IV3): Individual benefit to participant/punisher.
Operational Definition: The return on the initial investment relative to an expected average.
Dependent Variable 1 (DV1): Punishment.
Operational Definition: The amount of resources the observer is willing to spend in order to enforce social norms.
Dependent Variable 2 (DV2): Participant's norm compliance.
Operational Definition: Initial investment into a round of a common goods game.
Predicted Relationship: Three models:
Norm dominant model: N-1) Punishment will always positively correlate with norm violation.
Group advantage model: GA-1) As intrinsic value goes down, punishment will highly correlate with norm compliance. GA -2) As intrinsic value goes up, punishment will negatively correlate with intrinsic value.
Selfish model: S-1) Punishment will be negatively correlated with individual benefit regardless of norm violation.
Thieves' honor model: T-1) No punishment and Loafer's compliance highly correlated with participant's compliance.
· Gender differences.
· Participants willingness to punish.
Participants will be college students in an introductory psychology course.
Participants will be presented with a series of game scenarios covering an investment game and then select how much money they chose to invest as well as--if desired--how much money they are willing to spend to punish (tax the money of) other players.
The game starts with an ante or "buy in" with a normal amount specified. Within the scenario, a designated "loafer" will either put nothing into the pot, a token (sub-norm) amount, or the proper amount. The amount anted will then be subject to a modifier based on a game of skill. The loafer will either have no influence on the outcome or be skilled enough to produce a significant profit for the group. The game ends with the option for participants to pay some of their money in order to take a similar amount from another participant.
Because of the need to manipulate the outcomes, the games will be presented only in descriptive, explanatory form and both the participant's ante and amount of punishment will be recorder. Additional questions will be interspersed to make the study's focus less obvious and avoid certain effects.
Axelrod, R., & Hamilton, W. (1981). The evolution of cooperation. Science (New York, N.Y.), 211(4489), 1390-1396.
Carpenter, J., Bowles, S., Gintis, H., & Hwang, S. (2009). Strong reciprocity and team production: Theory and evidence. Journal of Economic Behavior & Organization, 71(2), 221-232.
Fehr, E., & Rockenbach, B. (2004). Human altruism: economic, neural, and evolutionary perspectives. Current Opinion in Neurobiology, 14(6), 784-790.
Hagen, E., & Hammerstein, P. (2006). Game theory and human evolution: a critique of some recent interpretations of experimental games. Theoretical Population Biology, 69(3), 339-348.
Hamilton, W. (1963). The evolution of altruistic behavior. The American Naturalist, 97(896), 354-356.
Henrich, J. (2004). Cultural group selection, coevolutionary processes and large-scale cooperation. Journal of Economic Behavior & Organization, 53(1), 3-35.
Janssen, M., & Bushman, C. (2008). Evolution of cooperation and altruistic punishment when retaliation is possible. Journal of Theoretical Biology, 254(3), 541-545.
Johnson, T., Dawes, C., Fowler, J., Mcelreath, R., & Smirnov, O. (2009). The role of egalitarian motives in altruistic punishment. Economics Letters, 102(3), 192-194.
Nakamaru, M., & Iwasa, Y. (2006). The coevolution of altruism and punishment: Role of the selfish punisher. Journal of Theoretical Biology, 240(3), 475-488.
Nelissen, R. (2008). The price you pay: cost-dependent reputation effects of altruistic punishment. Evolution and Human Behavior, 29, 242-248.
West, S., Griffin, A., & Gardner, A. (2007). Social semantics: altruism, cooperation, mutualism, strong reciprocity and group selection. Journal of Evolutionary Biology, 20(2), 415-432.
This survey consists of two parts, a demographic survey asking questions about your background and a second portion where you will be presented with a series of scenarios about a game. Your decisions on how you play the game will be evaluated to help identify a general strategy, so please play to win.
The game is relatively simple and a derivative of blackjack. You will be assigned to one of four teams and the teams will compete for tokens as well as competing for placement within teams. You will be given 150 tokens to start with.
The game has four rounds. Each round starts with an ante. Each person contributes however many tokens they desire up to a maximum of 30 tokens per round into the communal pot. Each individual plays three hands of blackjack and the number of winning hands are counted collectively and the pot multiplied by the number of wins. The pot is then split evenly among the players, odd tokens being discarded.
At the end of the round, each player has the opportunity to pay tokens they have in hand to reduce the payoff of another player up to a total of 30 tokens. This is useful if someone fails to contribute to the team effort.
Rationale: Rape--sexual activity by force--has individual and social consequences. In humans, it's usually about power for the male. However, as a potentially procreative act, it might be seen as or--and as some researchers have posed--it might be a reproductive tactic. In some other species--including orangutans--it is a reproductive tactic for the non-dominant male phenotype. My supposition is that rape without durable control by the rapist can only be a stable strategy when 1) Pregnant females are able--through individual or social means--to support offspring until adulthood. 2) The individual cost of the rape does not prevent successful breeding. 3) Mother's support of offspring is not negatively influenced by the character of the conception. (Either there is no emotional connection between the two or there is a stronger influence.) 4) Disruption of social support for the mother and offspring are not seriously disrupted. Rape with a durable level of control--i.e. capture and maintain custody over long periods--would be a different story where resource requirements would be shared between rapist and mother and I expect the key factors would be stress on the mother and the degree of social support required vs. available.
Hypothesis: 1) The incidence of rape--on average--is correlated with the fraction of resources needed by pregnant women divided by the fraction of resources a pregnant woman is able to self-provide when social support of raped women is minimal. 2) The incidence of rape--on average--goes up when pregnant women in general have high levels of either social support or independence of resources. 3) The incidence of rape decreases in populations with a large degree of social and gender interdependence.
Independent Variable 1 (IV1): Social economic support
Operational Definition: The amount of living resources--caloric and expenses--provided to a woman that is not generated by her.
Independent Variable 2 (IV2): Personal economic support
Operational Definition: The amount of living resources--caloric and expenses--provided by a woman that is generated by her.
Independent Variable 3 (IV3): Degree of social and gender interdependence in a culture.
Operational Definition: (To be determined)
Dependent Variable 1 (DV1): Incidence of rape.
Dependent Variable 2 (DV2): Survival to adulthood--as a proportion of all births--of children of rape.
Predicted Relationship: Incidence of rape is negatively correlated with social/gender interdependence, negatively correlated with low levels of personal economic and social economic support in stable situations.
· Situation stability (radical changes in economic levels)
· Cultural effects on consequences of rape.
· Socio-economic Status (SES).
Many countries require all citizens to fulfill a mandatory period of service in the armed forces. Do you agree or disagree with this policy? Do you think the current recruitment system creates or sustains socioeconomic inequality?
Hybrid answer: I believe all countries--at least the ones that want to last--should require some level of service from all non-criminal citizens not otherwise occupied with society and culture-building activities. That service should include a basic level of military training, education in the laws of the land, safety and hygiene education, and some level of disaster education. They shouldn't be used as armed forces except in a dire emergency when the professionals are no longer available. The service--after training--should be pro-cultural or environmental. Wilderness firefighting, disaster support, forestry, border security, or help in the rough areas.
Opting to go into the military instead should be an option. The infirm, criminal, and disabled should be exempt (although the disabled could volunteer for a modified service based on what they are able to do individually). For those able to serve, tie governmental education support--grants, loans, etc.--to completing service.
Opting to go directly into professional civil service or delaying service to complete an appropriate school--like nursing--would also help.
- Write Hummingbird color preference paper, due... er... today.
- Develop survey questions for Psych project
- Submit application for IRB approval
- Contact Dr. Sabo about Incomplete again
- Find part-time job
- Work on relationship
- Other stuff I've likely forgotten
Yeah. Go me.
I looked over and they suggested I friend http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000318445370&ref=pymk
. Yes, that's the ex-Psycho. I swear, I saw that and my pulse rate jumped.
I take get directly threatened, almost dying, and car accidents easier than that.
I mean, honestly, it freaked me the fuck out.
I had hoped I was more recovered than that. I mean, she doesn't know exactly where I am. It's a gated access with multiple locked doors and I still am just... apprehensive.
I looked at the profile and there aren't even friends in common.
I just... I don't know.
What I NEED to concentrate on is writing the 18+ vignettes for my research project so I can submit it to the Institutional Review Board.
Christ, I'm less nervous about talking to anyone that doesn't include her.
Rationale: Assuming social norms have an evolutionary basis for development—somewhat like language acquisition—that includes some level of biological predisposition for compliance, a logical exceptions or competition would be individual benefits from reproduction. Given the biological investment in the consequences of reproduction are biased toward the female—pregnancy, lactation, a significant portion of child-rearing—the propensity for violating social norms for one’s own benefits would be more likely to be detected in women. As well, the ability to cognitively take into account social norms affecting reproductive fitness should somewhat—like the ability to learn new languages—flexible.
Hypothesis: 1) Given a set of social norms known to a reproductively capable woman, she should make reproductive decisions that are biased towards her own success—even in violation of social norms—when they are reproductively advantageous to her and at a low social cost (either by not being caught or not costly). 2) When required to make decisions given a new set of social norms that impact reproductive decisions, the same pattern of compliance/non-compliance should continue.
Independent Variable 1 (IV1): Social norms
Levels: Default / Artificial.
Operational Definition: Default norms will be established by survey of a cross section of social peers prior to the experiment and by correlating demographic cultural/religious information. Artificial norms will be presented within the decision scenarios based on real world norms from historic or other current cultures.
Independent Variable 2 (IV2): Type of decision.
Levels: Non-reproductive / Resource decisions / Sexual partner decisions
Note: For analysis, the last two may be lumped into “reproductive decisions”.
Operational Definition: (To be determined)
Independent Variable 3 (IV3): Proximity of decision.
Levels: Self / Related woman / Population at large.
Operational Definition: (To be determined)
Dependent Variable 1 (DV1): Compliance with social norms.
Operational Definition: Mean differences between proscriptive norms and decisions made.
Dependent Variable 2 (DV2): Selfishness.
Operational Definition: Mean differences between proscriptive non-reproductive decisions and reproductive decisions made.
Predicted Relationship: Women should make selfish decisions, violating social norms, when the reproductive benefit is greatest to themselves—self > close > public—and comply with the proscribed social norms on non-reproductive decisions. If cultural norms are cognitively flexible, there should be no difference between the non-reproductive decisions under the default social norms and the artificial social norms.
· Sociosexuality (restricive/unrestrictive).
· Cultural effects on sociosexuality.
· Socio-economic Status (SES).
|A || ||11/12||14/14||12/12|
You read across from the left. The first number is the number of encounters that crayfish won and the second is the total number of encounters between the two.
Or--simpler--the 1 indicates dominance over the other, a 0 indicates submission, and a 1/2 shows an unclear situation.
|A || ||1||1||1|
The question is: Is it a linear hierarchy (A > B > C > D), a non-linear hierarchy (A > Everyone else), and does it matter that it looks like there may be a circular hierarchy in there possibly (A > B > C > D > A...)?
Searching "Dominance Hierarchy Statistical Tests" got me a bunch of papers on the subject--some dating back to the 1920's--arguing about what the appropriate statistical tests are to identify linear dominance hierarchies. Some even requiring you to access those older, 1920's papers or later 1950's papers to get a table.
I really, really hate dominance hierarchies right now and... yeah.
Wed, Sep. 30th, 2009, 01:00 pm
So, if you apply and get accepted, they pay your entire way through your Master's?
On the Red Sea in Saudi Arabia...
I could just imagine...
"You were a soldier during the first Iraq War... you ever been to Saudi?"
"Unit? Nope, I got my graduate degree there..."
Tue, Sep. 29th, 2009, 04:45 pm
Need to finish working out Psych research project and generate ideas for Animal research.
Also thinking about doing a simulation for paper on crayfish.
Will try to write out concept for Psych research paper later.
First, I made Emily sore again and--if she was home--probably gave the RA in the next room an audio show like she gives on occasion. We didn't even start it as sex, only cuddling and kissing, and it was very worthwhile.
Second, while Emily was in Chemistry and getting hair done, Carl did the macho thing up and down 3 flights of stairs, trying to kill Chinese hats, and generally reminding himself that one of his (revised) lifetime goals is to have either a job or money enough to hire movers when he really has to move.
Was a workout and the lower back is still a little tight, but it didn't keep Carl from making Emily sorer or doing anything else--at least with a little thought of pacing, anyway.
Oh, and I fixed a space-bar on a friend's typewriter.
Ya'know, I really miss about three things about manual typewriters--definitely not the effort needed to make the keys work--the ding as you approach the end of the line that tells you to prepare to end and return, the feel of throwing that carriage back for a new line, and the smell of the oil and rubber platen. It sort of brings a down-to-earth and mechanistic feeling to writing on one. Don't get me wrong, when I had to actually do assignments in high school on one, I really appreciated the electric and/or electronic versions. Even at North Central Animal Hospital, I liked having a correction tape on the typewrites. Still, there is something about a simple, mechanical typewriter.
Slept well after moving stuff. Today, we didn't do too much, but Emily and I went to the store for a few things--intending on baking chicken--and ran across pork chops on sale. It was $3 for a package of 6, so we breaded and baked them, made veggies, and this "instant" pasta salad stuff. Was good and the leftovers--half of the pork chops--are probably going to be lunch and/or dinner tomorrow for me.
I so am happy I'm learning how to cook stuff and Emily is aiding and abetting.
Should work on homework though.
...but earlier, in Animal Behavior lab, we were talking about how to identify if hummingbirds prefer red flowers...
...and--after a team mate suggested dyeing flowers--I created a nifty concept:
You find two flowers--say a red one and a white one--and see if hummingbirds actually prefer one or the other. If it's white, experiment over. If it's red, it might be the color or it might be some other factor, say, shape.
So, here's where the dye comes in. You keep some white flowers, some natural red flowers, then you start dyeing flowers. Some of the white and natural red, you try dyeing red. Some of each, you also dye black.
Why go through the trouble? Using this--changing the non-preferred's flower's color, changing the color of the preferred flower, and by administering dye that maintains the color--you can identify whether it's the flower's color, shape or other factor, or whether the dye has any impact at all.
See: (X is any number of visits not zero. X++ is a significant number of visits more than X).
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Of course, my proposal lost out because 1) Don't know the practicality of dyeing flowers and 2) the instructor had already bought and brought "artificial flowers". He did come over and kind of hinted that it wasn't a bad idea and I made sure to point credit at the person suggesting dyeing flowers.
More later, must go to lecture.
A guy walks in to a store, the only person there is an attractive woman, getting ready to close up. They look each other over, smile at liking what they see. They talk about ordering, she drops a double entendre about hooking up...
...the guitar solo starts...
...they step closer and he remembers he forgot his wallet and leaves.
Then he goes home, his room mate is sitting on the couch. The first guy sits down and the movie comes on. It's something sexy and they both start seeing if the other is looking as they talk about whatever...
...they make lingering eye contact, the thumpy techno music starts...
...and dude gets up to go to the bathroom.
Next scene is when he wakes up and his roomie's mom is there. She's busty, maybe a little chubby, and looks in on him where he's only covered by a sheet. There's eye contact and...
...you get the picture.
An entire movie of porn-scene set ups with musical cues all the way across the sexual spectrum with no actual porn. Yeah, and there'll have to be an actual plot too that you'll have to pick up on after automatically discarding it for the sexual overtones.
The final fade out will infer some sexual activity... but maybe not.
(And it will have to be something totally inappropriate.)
Just an idea.
...I want to sleep in more.
Hate getting up this early for some reason.
...Instead of waiting, getting sleepy, and forgetting.
I used to be better at this.
Do you think men or women are more likely to cheat if they know they won't get caught? Do you believe in marriage?
I think the biggest variables are motive and consequences. If you remove the consequences--usually more severe for women in this and many other cultures--then you only have motive (and personality tied to motive) left.
In general, I think most men are more opportunistic. That's the way the biology works--especially in humans with concealed ovulation by women. In most situations, most men will try and minimize the consequences and protect the primary relationship up to or until the primary relationship is not working as well as the other(s). Then they "trade up" usually based on sexual quality and frequency (this may include attractiveness because it increases the male side of sex quality and frequency).
Women--in general--are more "rational". Rational is in quotes because some of the rationality isn't what they think about, but is a decision making element that influences the thinking part through emotions. They tend to start relationships based on a few things: access to resources, reliable support, sexual quality (often related to good genes in the man as well as immune system genes), and simple, old emotional/social stability. Generally, the resources and sexual quality factors define "who" they are attracted to, but the combination and the stability/support issues determine the "whether" on cheating.
A woman in an unsatisfying sexual relationship, a situation that is emotionally or social unstable (like an abusive one or moving to a new place) or financial problems (especially if she wants kids) is more likely to cheat to get what she wants. This can be opportunistic--like the man--or it may be an intentional attempt to supplement what's missing in the "primary" relationship. Alternatively, she may be shopping for a new primary without losing support in the meantime.
As far as believing in marriage, I believe marriage is a social tool used to apply social pressure on people in a relationship. It enlists others--family and friends especially--to promote desired behaviors in the people who marry. As long as the relationship is healthy and is meeting all of both partner's needs, it's probably benign. Otherwise, it's selling one or both partners a bill of unattainable/unsustainable/unreliable goods and creates a false sense of stability and trust along with guaranteed conflict for years.
Sat, Sep. 19th, 2009, 06:58 am
It had a bit of an inside-the-dream deja vu
effect. First, I was in a cluster of rooms--like dorm rooms--and there were a small group of people and an instructor and we were sitting around talking about something. Later, I got dressed--in an ACU (new Army uniform) for some reason and started to leave. My Hi-Power, magazines, and holster were there and I put them on under the ACU blouse.
I don't know why, but I think I was being hunted for some reason and I had to get out of the building. The building was actually a large, multi-story building with offices, escalators, cubicle farms, elevators, etc. There were soldiers everywhere in ACU's and carrying sidearms and rifles/carbines, etc.
I had the feeling I had escaped from here twice before for some reason. I crossed this enclosed foot bridge between two buildings.
At first, I simply walked through areas, avoiding giving face to where I knew cameras were, until I got between two banks of elevators and a pair of soldiers recognized me and tried to stop me. I closed right up to them--face-to-face--saying "I'm surrendering" then drew my pistol from under the blouse and pressed it lightly against one's side and shot. The other soldier tried to move around to get a clear shot and I shot him over his buddy's shoulder. I grabbed the first's carbine and magazines from a pouch. An elevator opened up, I leaned in and pressed the button for the ground floor and stepped out, heading into the stairwell across from the elevator.
I went up two floors with the carbine slung over my shoulder and moved out of the way as about 6 armed "Wackenhut" security guards came down the stairs from above. Once they were by me, I went up another floor and exited the stairs. This floor was dark and a little quiet. I walked back the direction I had come from towards the upper level of the foot bridge, then took this long escalator down that crossed this huge open space in the building. I passed the floor I had been in and saw a huge number of soldiers running towards the elevator.
The escalator ended on the floor below where I shot the soldiers and I got off. It was still something like the fourth or fifth floor of the building. I walked through a cubicle farm and a squad of soldiers came up behind me, headed for a stairwell with rifles ready. I moved out of the way initially, but--as soon as they passed--I unslung my carbine and joined the back of the pack. We went down the stairs, but at the bottom I could see someone who recognized me.
I kicked the soldier ahead of me on the stairs in the back and he pitched forward into the one in front of him and the whole squad ended up falling headfirst down the stairwell into this guy at the bottom. I shouldered the carbine, shot the guy who recognized me and the NCO in charge of the squad, then high-tailed it back up the stairs to the next floor. I hit the elevator buttons and one opened with a guard in it. I shot him, took his magazines, and left him in the elevator after pressing the button for the 30th floor.
A second elevator opened with a pair of soldiers and I shot them and sent their elevator to the 30th floor also--after taking two grenades off their gear. I headed across the cubefarm again. People were scrambling to get under desks. I yelled "He's on the elevators. Everyone needs to evacuate to the lobby and outside immediately." I pointed to a guy who looked like he was in charge. "Who are you?"
I didn't even listen to the name.
"Make sure everyone clears this level. Don't run, move quickly to the stairs. Check in with the building commander when you are outside."
He nodded and started everyone moving. I headed toward the back of the level where--last time I escaped--they were performing construction on an expansion. I found a safety barricaded elevator shaft and slung the carbine. There was a set of rungs in the wall and the elevator car was several floors above. I climbed down past the first floor into the basement.
There was an Army supply area in the basement. There were guards down the hallway toward the main elevator banks and a broken doorway into the supply area with yellow safety tape on it. A Wackenhut guard was at a desk, looking down the hall at the soldiers setting up towards the main elevators. I stopped for a moment and asked him "What's going on down there?"
"I don't know, someone's shot some people and is trying to get out."
"Damn. Whoever it is is soooo fucked." I said.
"You're telling me."
I walked through the broken door--a hinge was loose--and into the supply area. There was a long hall with supply cages along the left side and an outside door I could see Army cargo trucks through. I walked quickly and with a purpose outside. Two trucks rolled up full of infantrymen and the platoon sargent and platoon leader got out of the cabs leaving the drivers alone.
I moved out of the way as they assembled by squad and moves down the alley behind the building toward the entrance. I walked up to the passenger side of one of the trucks and climbed up to talk through the open window. "Need a TC?"
The soldier at the wheel nodded.
I climbed in and he started to drive away. Then Emily's alarm went off and I woke up.
Rather detailed and interesting dream. Woke up pretty... ramped up for some reason.
I don't know why I was having to shoot soldiers, but it was only a dream. I also don't know why I took the escalator exactly.
As was said by Emily today. Then we both cracked up and ended up eating at the Black Bear Diner--you don't have to be crazy to eat there, but it helps--instead after we saw the parking lot at Hooters.
Emily says she hears they have good wings at Hooters.
Ended up getting stuck at a sensing session for the ASU West class president last night. Everyone else--for the most part--wanted new restauraunts--even some I've never heard of--but I asked about a Forensic Science program in conjunction with the local community colleges and crime labs. Mostly it was an excuse to suggest more bio-anthropology courses available at West campus.
Anyway, must go bed soon... Emily up early for Chemistry.
Must also remember to post about the cute little grammar-Nazi I met.
A friend had a positive blood test for a medical condition that simply goes on to a possible explanation of a whole lot.
Makes sense now after bunches of classes on that particular physiological process.
Still need to finish Animal Behavior write up, but the others are caught up.
Slept okay, mostly sleep-o-the-dead.
Will catch up on e-mail, LJ, etc. soon.
...still need to do mealworm beetle write-up, but have half of Anthro paper done for tomorrow.
Just didn't sleep. Don't know why.
Been drag-assing because there isn't much data in this write-up.
Anyway, have to go to class.
I learned to sex crayfish.
It's simple, really, but you do have to pick them up, flip them over, and look.
Then we got to watch them fight.
When I was a kid... okay, teenager... I got to go after crayfish in a lake in Michigan. Can't remember which, but one around Traverse City. Those were comparatively huge by comparison to these, but some had some pretty good claw sizes. Didn't get pinched though.
I really like messing with the wildlife.
Oh... and courtesy of a glass, I learned the CA next door is simply loud and her male partner is stealthy. Either that or my hearing damage lets me white-out deeper, male tones in lieu of higher pitched female tones.
Must remember to write up Mealworm Beetle report and complete Psych assignment this weekend.
...but likely more restful than up-every-morning-before-the-ass-crack-of-d
Long gap between morning class and afternoon lab. Ate at the dining hall here on main campus. They had omelets, yogurt and granola, bananas, and peaches. I didn't quite over-eat, but I think I got my $6 worth of food and drink.
Kinda' sleepy and almost wish it was time to go home already.
Holy crap, it's Thursday. This school schedule seriously throws weeks by too quickly.
...the Orbit shuttle I took--free shuttle around ASU's main campus--turned out to have a much more orbital route than I thought. Probably halfway to Mesa. *smirk*
Then, after class, I had to stop for food. Really.
I mean, I didn't really, but I sort of did.
On the way home, but have to wait at ASU-Downtown for the shuttle and hope the 5PM from Main is atypically empty. (i.e. not standing-room-only) Or, I can just wait for the 5:30 which is often 3/4 empty because the insane seem to be really impatient.
What can I say?
Need a shower. In spite of not walking the mile-plus across campus today.
Anyway... back to the bus-waiting.
...for the most part, we're limited to Psych 101 students. *smirk*
Also must really get on ball with job looking and setting up GRE exam date.
Emily's sister made a comment to her that--after meeting me Sunday--she is somehow reminded of her dad by me.
I am really not sure how to feel about that. *smirk*
Anyway, playing with facial hair again. Maybe someday I will both be photogenic and have a camera at the same time.
Must also clean room.
Although, I at least got most of the dishes--except the silverware, a bowl, and a mug--done.
...just a harmless class assignment about job searching.
If you don't want to take it, feel free to delete it.
I was hoping to do it over Facebook, but couldn't figure out how to embed the damned thing.
Got to see a real gas chromatograph today. Was cool.
We got a tour of Dr. Liebig's lab today. He's actually looking at pheromones in ants and identifying--based on surface or contact pheromones--the differences between the castes. This is particularly interesting in ants because the workers and the queens are essentially genetically identical except for regulatory and then developmental differences. On the comparison of the chemical signatures we got to see today, you could see where the worker's peaks and the queen's overlapped in location (i.e. the chemical makeup), but the amounts in those areas for workers were much higher than the queen's. A little further "up"--essentially, a set of longer hydrocarbon chains in the cuticle (something akin to "skin" on mammals)--the queen had an entirely different set of strong peaks.
I started asking questions about the regulatory process of insect reproduction and didn't feel like an idiot. Maybe I should apply to be a research assistant? *smirk*
First impression: Smoking smell sucks.
1. Do not try to manage more than 12 bingo cards at once.
2. Daubers are fun.
3. Bingo gets tedious.
4. I now understand why my Grandpa and Grandma Armstrong would come back from bingo either happy (they won) or half-pissed (didn't win).
5. Carl can be persuaded to go again, but only socially.
Also sent Natalie well-wishes on her 6th
Research Techniques in Animal Behavior Lab today...
First, I end up answering most of the "semi-rhetorical" questions in the class simply because there are only about three of us who are usually even willing to speak up. That makes me usually feel like I'm being too involved in a way. I intentionally pause and wait for others to respond almost all the time, but if they don't... Yeah.
So, this week we were looking at Mealworm beetles (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tenebrio_molitor
). On Tuesday, we were presented with two groups of the adult beetles--marked "A" and "B"--and instructed to observe their interactions. First with like together--AA and BB--then with one of each--AB--and record their interactions. At the end of class we were given the "punch line": A's were adult males and B's were adult females.
Today, we talked about mating behavior and how males and females can get together and mate. Mostly, it was about how males can identify receptive, mature females. The main candidates were:
- Behavioral cues (action)
- Acoustic or vibrational cues (sound)
- Pheromones cues(scent)
- Morphological cues (shape/color)
So the question was how to be able to discriminate one from another between receptive females and non-receptive females.
I raised my hand--and with only a hint of smart-assitude--I suggested exposing males to dead, otherwise receptive females. My logic being: If the male responds, it's not an acoustic or behavioral cue. Then we could try finding a way to expose the male to something with the potential pheromones that isn't shaped like a female in order to tell whether it was scent or the shape. (And if the male didn't respond to the dead female, we could try descenting a living, receptive female... etc.)
Dr. Liebig kind of blinked--how he seems to show surprise, he's a really dry German--and sort of smiled. Others in the class started going "Ew!" and making necrophilia comments.
So, guess what we did during the rest of the lab?
Exposing the adult males to adult and juvenile females... and then to previously killed adult and juvenile females. On Tuesday, we talk about separating the pheromones and testing it on glass rods with males.
Totally made sense to me. Totally did not expect that's what we would be doing. Totally felt like I had a clue when that happened. *grin*
Pretty good day.
Oh, and I also discovered--courtesy of a somewhat loud neighbor--that sex noises transit these thing walls pretty clearly. Must try and remember to put white noise on next time. *smirk*
Maybe if I repeat it enough, I might actually.
Living and breathing and relearning stats--again.
A little frustrated when I "should" know this stuff.
I'll get it.
At least I can remember how to get it in the software and run and read scatterplots. I also have a good idea on what I WANT to compare and such. Now to remember the how-to's of what tests and how.
First weekend with Emily having full Saturday Chemistry. She's kind of excited. Diligent with her homework.
We're doing okay. I--and she, for what I can do on it--like the bigger, firmer full-size bed. Is enjoyable. Sometimes I find it funny I go as long as I do and yet--sometimes--feel like I should be able to do more...
Mind keeps going back to stats, back to research projects, and back to "How do I get to grad school and then how do I actually get there?"
Anyway. Brain crashing. Up early to get to Main.
Seriously, 4 loads of laundry out of one dorm room is a lot.
But--between classes, homework, and money--today was the first real day I could.
I am... yeah. I need a nap, but Emily's coming over, I need to go get last of laundry from driers soon...
...crap, my tea is in the microwave.
I almost forgot.
Actually, gathering data for Human Mate Selection in class by going through a dating-site-not-to-be-named and pulling ages of participants, education levels, and their preferences for mate ages, education, and income ranges.
So far, the women are much pickier, the men are more volunteering of info on income, and yeah...
Anyway, must away towards bus, then train, then class, then train, then bus, then here.
...but I really must review my statistics.
So happy when it starts cooling down again.
Gotta' go catch bus.
(DJ needs to write more... Back on task, eh?)
Went to ASB 326 Human Impacts on Ancient Environment and PGS 394 Psychology and Religion.
Dropped Psych of Religion because:
1) the PITA factor is more than other classes will allow.
2) ASB 326 Human Impacts on Ancient Environment is actually more interesting.
3) The discussion--while interesting--is a little dry given the classmates.
4) Two of the books are $90+ each and there is massive amounts of reading involved totally off on a tangent from what else I'm taking. Fun
So... Happy I sat through both first classes before making decisions.
Really must work more on keeping up with journal.
Sleepy now though. Must be on 7am shuttle to Main.
Thu, Aug. 20th, 2009, 12:43 am
And has been baiting hypocritical liberals online over the news story regarding the black man with the AR15 outside the Obama event in Phoenix.
I love how "Oh my GOD! Someone must harass him!" they get and call for the police to protect them.
So, what are the police?
Men with guns, often Glocks and AR15's just like the guy was carrying.
Classes start next week. Got some Financial Aid. Stocked up pantry.
Yay! Tea and sugar.
Ran out of flavored tea and white sugar. Was drinking rather sturdy Kroeger brand... with buttloads of brown sugar. Took that much sugar to be able to taste it over the tea.
(Thanks, Nicole, for leaving me all that tea. Got into an addiction for hot tea now. *smirk*)
Still have books to buy. So far, only 10 credit hours/3 classes.
Psychology and Religion
Research Techniques in Animal Behavior
Oh, and finishing Biometry.
I think part of it is--when I sit down to work on it--I open the final first and go: "Ah... FUCK!" and it doesn't happen. So, I'm going to try and do the labs, in order, and then the final.
I have also been spending way too much time leaving snarky advice to military wives on:http://www.truuconfessions.com/channels/Military%20Wives
Posted by anonymous
truu52848"Where is my husband and who the hell is this guy that the army gave back to me???"
Response:"It's like Legos you lose the instructions for. You work off of the pictures on the side of the box, memory, a little creativity, and keep going until something looks familiar. Either that or you give up, toss them in the trash, and go buy an Erector set. "
I can be sort of... Yeah. *grin*
Anyway, needs beds.
Don't be strangers.
Went and helped an old friend recover his motorcycle from his now-ex-girlfriend. Mostly, I just drove and watched in case.
It seems there was an argument last night with the ex--another previous victim of an abusive relationship--and my friend called police and they helped chaperon while he got some of the essentials out. The now-ex had called her ex and he came over packing so when it was time to go get his motorcycle today, I got covering duty.
Happily, it only turned into a pleasant drive with only a few tense moments in front of house.
Otherwise quiet day.
Still haven't done Biometry. There may be time left, but Emily's almost home...
OkCupid! sends me emails on occasion to tell me when someone has looked at my profile. (Otherwise, I'd totally forget the thing until I'm bored and want to take cheesy quizzes.)
Anyway, the last few to look at me were women from 37 to 42 and I saw ages and went: *shrug* "Okay." Was curious and looked at profiles.
I can see why none of them ever message. *smirk* I have--like--nothing in common.
Just thought I'd say that.
I've been... not doing a whole hell of a lot. No money, no transport, waiting for new semester, no "time giver" other than the alarm clock and the people in and out getting the dorms ready for Fall.
In a way, it's like the "Langoliers" here. Things moving out. Things moving in. No people, so much.
Tried making fried rice tonight, worked out pretty well, but I need mixed veggies for next time. I also tried breaded baked chicken. Was also pretty good.
Heh! Maybe I can survive on my own without a mess hall, wife, mom, dining facility, restaurant, etc.
I solemnly promise to complete at least one Biometry lab tomorrow. Really.
Picture a big, grassy, hilly area with two herds of animals. One are juicy, tasty sheep and the other are scrawny goats. Now, imagine a pack of wolves sitting off to the side, hungry as hell.
Oh, and there's a fence down the middle between the two herds of animals. The wolves are on the goat-side.
Now, most of the wolves, they have a taste for goat meat. A smaller number have a taste for only sheep. Some wolves don't care which, but they are a minority.
To get a goat, you have to wait, work slowly, approach with caution to avoid the goats fighting back. The cost in time is quite a bit and it takes the wolves working together to get one.
To get a sheep, you simply hop the fence, and chow down. See, sheep are easy and no teamwork is necessary.
The problem with sheep though, is not many of the wolves like sheep and--if you ditch the wolf pack to get a sheep--the other wolves don't like you because it messes with their ability to get goat.
So, for the wolves who like goat, there is only one choice: keep the pack together and hunt as a team.
For the wolves who like only sheep, there is two choices: 1) Hop the gate and eat sheep, but suffer condemnation and punishment from the other wolves. 2) Stay with the pack, hunt goat, be frustrated, and avoid punishment.
For the wolves who like both, there are three choices: 1) Hop the gate and eat sheep, but suffer condemnation and punishment from the other wolves. 2) Stay with the pack, hunt goat, be and avoid punishment. 3) Hunt goat with the pack now, then go eat sheep on the side.
The wolves that like sheep have to compromise between what they want (sheep) and what they feel pressured to do (hunt with pack). Their individual decisions would depend on certain traits like their ability to control their need for sheep, their attachment to the pack, how integrated they are into the pack, etc. If the pack is vital to their survival in other ways or they are particularly susceptible to peer pressure, they may simply internalize the frustration of needing sheep and either starve or make do with what parts of goat they can tolerate. However, for these frustrated wolves, watching another wolf hop that fence and get that sheep is going to particularly devastating because not only are they feeling the anger of that errant wolf violating the trust of the pack, but they are taking it personally as well because of their internal sense of frustration.
They want to do exactly the same thing but can't.
So, what are the dynamics that can change?
First, if there are enough wolves left to successfully hunt goat on their own, the tolerance for sheep-hunting might go up. Likewise, too few wolves in the pack might boost frustration/punishment.
Second, if the number of goats were particularly small, tolerance for sheep-hunters might go up because it makes more available for the others in the pack.
Third, if another food source--say "wolf-kibble"--is another option that requires no teamwork, it could mediate punishment costs to wolves choosing to hunt sheep.
Still need to think about this a bit and see if someone else has similar ideas, but the translation--if you don't get it--is that "goats" are sexual/relationship opportunities with women, "sheep" are sexual opportunities with men, and the wolves are an allegory for men.
Homosexual women are likely to be different because the costs might change.
Still, I'm half asleep, so...
I'm supposed to move today...
Instead, I stayed up until almost 5AM and wrote 3934 words on a story--some of it pretty porny.
Now, I need sleep.
I will definitely have to reread and probably edit the crap out of it, but--hey--it was fun and easy at the time.
*goes to pass out*
I have about a 1.5" x 1" patch of second degree burn on the inside of my left wrist. Slight mishap with getting the spaghetti sauce out of the microwave. That stuff seriously holds heat. There's a larger patch of 1st degree across the back of my thumb and wrist.
Good news is I heal quickly.
Saw my new room today. Mirror image of my last room, literally. Other (Southern vs. Northern) corner room of the complex. I think they are painting something in it. It's nice to have a full-size bed rather than a bunk bed--but I've always been adaptable. *smirk*
Yeah. Go me.